June 17

Another week has past and so this damned weekend . I wish I could say I have done some legendary things this week, things that you will be eager to hear . Unfortunately I didn't , I just woke up , got my ass to work and back ..all this excitement for 5 days straight . I wanted to write something the other night , but I was piss drunk so I decided to go outside and take a long walk , simple pleasures of life... sometimes shouldn't be combined . I guess I am getting old , meh.. I just wanted to be more and more stupid , to achieve that nirvana derived from that state of mind .. ignorance is bliss , but if you can't ignore everything what the actual fuck are you doing ? Not succeeding at being stupid is a fail or a win !? Seriously I don't care much about this , I just want a couple more days of freedom a couple more beers in the fridge and some normal humans to interact with. Are you there ? Could you give me a sign that is somehow ok to write ? I don't feel the need anymore to do this .. or I am not drunk enough , don't know , I just want to move on and explore some new places , meet some new people to restore some of my lost faith in humanity . For now I will leave you with this song , wish you all the best wherever you are .

Meh..

So here I am again , talking to myself and to you my dear one and only reader. It's been some time since I had something to say , something that I would wish to say to someone or maybe just to myself , today I am maybe just a little more pissed about the society in which me and you must live . I see the lack of respect and that joyfully stupidity on most of the people faces . Those little pathetic excuses for humans are happy or sad with their insignificant lives , I am more and more a traveler ..of both time and space .. in this poor excuse of spontaneously existence . Sometimes I wish I was never been born at all , I saw too many atrocities that maybe somehow affected my mind to the point that I can not see the world as a place where I need to find my happiness . This world is driven by factors I can't rely to , we live in a decadent society driven by clowns and I can no longer laugh at their bad jokes , I wish I can find a place where I can be alone with my thoughts, I need to find a purpose worth fighting for . You see, I can't close my eyes knowing that people are freezing to death, I can't eat when I know children are dying of starvation, I can't laugh when old men shed tears, I am utterly disgusted for being a human and taking part of this new social slavery imposed by our society . I know I can't change anything , and maybe is nothing meant to be changed because maybe I am the lunatic and is not your fault that I am crazy , but sincerely I would want to push that " end of all things button " so fucking bad .. I can't feel your tears, I can't relate to your problems when there are bigger issues which nobody tries to overcome .. I am too small to make a change , and I will probably never be able to make a difference . I am not complaining about my life , I am content with what I have, I am at peace with my own self , but not with the world I am part of . I just want to fade away , close my eyes and wake up when our race will not evolve from wars and murder , when we could just get along with each other , you may say I am a dreamer , maybe , but I am not the only one . Now please excuse me .. is late .. and I just want to sail away , from you my dear , from this world and from this whole realm of ignorance . Jack