Reach out touch faith

Wait..wait a second , must light up a cigar..
So many of you ( probably none ) are wondering why do I like this girl , I mean I am the Jack , I do not like girls and in the most chauvinistic manner I just use them for my own hedonistic pleasure . Well I like her because she succeed to be more bitchy than any other girl before , I tend to be sincere to girls, and when I like them I usually go to them ..and say it .. ( Yekshmas ma name is Borat , I like you , how much !? ) Well this time something was wrong , she didn't reply with the characteristic smiley face and "I want you in me" phrase , actually it was ice cold and kinda offended that I had the nerve to tell her that she's damn hot .
you know what .. I still didn't light up that cigar.. must..get..cigar..good.. good now I am smoking like a rastafari . Well the girl had some issues she likes video games , listens to good music she's pretty hot and the most important thing she's a smartass .. I mean literally she knows what the hell is doing .. this thing was contradictory to my beliefs and sometimes I just like watching her ramble :|about work and stuff related to work .. stuff I must know ..and probably don't .. just sayin'
Well enough about her because she will probably read this stuff and will puff up like a puffer fish thinking I am all into her . Thing which is not entirely true , I like her , I like talking to her but it feels like she's so far away and I can't reach out, while ..others are lurking and waiting for a chance .
So right now she's out there with a guy watching a movie or eating something , while I am writing this , more for her than for me , and I am wondering .. how and why am I doing this ? Do I really like this girl so much that I am doing something because she likes or am I really doing this because I enjoy this and I don't want it to end .
I don't know, and probably YOU shouldn't know, now I am going to drink a beer and play the waiting game . Outside is pouring, I couldn't resist at work .. I went at work at 6 AM and call it a day at 8 AM .. I almost felt asleep five times and fuck me sideways if I won't go to bed at 9 tonight .
So the song for today is Depeche Mode - Reach out touch faith . Enjoy it and thanks for reading what I had to say . You will enjoy it more after she will stop talking to me, I bet that .