Life is ours, we live it our way

  Oh..hello there, let me just put on my headphones and pop up another beer ..
Good.. now I am back .. oh this beer .. I love it,  I had some medical problems so I wasn't allowed to drink for about 16 days . It was pretty painful , but now I have a sweet six pack right next to me .
   You know I also wasn't allowed to go to work for some time so I had plenty of spare time to think about myself and what am I doing with my life . Obviously I concluded that I am too fucking awesome and that it's imperative necessary to stay as hidden as possible and not letting the majority of the people to see my awesomeness in his purest form possible, I am afraid they would cause riots , churches will be raped women will be burned and so on ..
   Seriously now, for a reason I don't fully understand right now it seems that the shit is about to hit the fan , I am older than ever before and the fact that I know I am not the brightest crayon from the pack doesn't help me too much . At work is ok , in fact I may have some chances not to get fired , at home I am making a perfect team with myself ... like look at those beers I bought them for me .. I can't say anything else .. who would go at 2 : 30 in the morning , ignoring two packs of stray dogs , and buy me an six pack ? I would ! Fuck yeah !
    Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time just to straighten up some things , some ugly things I did in the past , I am not always sorry about what have I done , but sometimes , just sometimes, I wish I could thank some people for being part of my life , even if that time passed by very quickly , the memories and the feelings that those people gave me left a mark ( not a scar ) on my heart . Sometimes I wish the world would be as I see it right now after three beers .. lovely , with people in which you can trust .. sadly only an foul would trust someone else . As much as we like to think about ourselves as social beings , the only thing that keeps as together is the egoistic need of one and another . If we could be self sustaining physically and psychically we would not give a fuck about others . That is just my opinion .. and another golden rule is " Do not take any advice about life or love from anybody . This is YOUR life .. THEY can't know 100% what is good or bad for you .. think for yourself and make decisions after you thoughtfully compared the risks and the advantages . Look at me ..saying don't listen to any advice and I am giving them like you just crack opened a bag of fortune cookies .
     Anyhow... what I wanted to say is .. enjoy your life , enjoy what you feel and enjoy the moments with your family and friends , don't collect things..objects ..collect moments , collect joy through memories , it will come a time when all we will have would be those memories .
    May you all be blessed by some super power out there in the Universe... God.. Flying Spaghetti Monster or even Cthulhu ruler of all and beyond .  I don't know how much of the old " Jack " is in me , it seems that he's fading away , so  be good folks , as I stated before I love each and everyone of you  , stay safe !

Oh and this is for you , for the ones that keep coming here to find out if I am still living , I do miss you, so close no matter how far

Meh..

So here I am again , talking to myself and to you my dear one and only reader. It's been some time since I had something to say , something that I would wish to say to someone or maybe just to myself , today I am maybe just a little more pissed about the society in which me and you must live . I see the lack of respect and that joyfully stupidity on most of the people faces . Those little pathetic excuses for humans are happy or sad with their insignificant lives , I am more and more a traveler ..of both time and space .. in this poor excuse of spontaneously existence . Sometimes I wish I was never been born at all , I saw too many atrocities that maybe somehow affected my mind to the point that I can not see the world as a place where I need to find my happiness . This world is driven by factors I can't rely to , we live in a decadent society driven by clowns and I can no longer laugh at their bad jokes , I wish I can find a place where I can be alone with my thoughts, I need to find a purpose worth fighting for . You see, I can't close my eyes knowing that people are freezing to death, I can't eat when I know children are dying of starvation, I can't laugh when old men shed tears, I am utterly disgusted for being a human and taking part of this new social slavery imposed by our society . I know I can't change anything , and maybe is nothing meant to be changed because maybe I am the lunatic and is not your fault that I am crazy , but sincerely I would want to push that " end of all things button " so fucking bad .. I can't feel your tears, I can't relate to your problems when there are bigger issues which nobody tries to overcome .. I am too small to make a change , and I will probably never be able to make a difference . I am not complaining about my life , I am content with what I have, I am at peace with my own self , but not with the world I am part of . I just want to fade away , close my eyes and wake up when our race will not evolve from wars and murder , when we could just get along with each other , you may say I am a dreamer , maybe , but I am not the only one . Now please excuse me .. is late .. and I just want to sail away , from you my dear , from this world and from this whole realm of ignorance . Jack

Bad habits

      Hello there my one and only reader, I was wondering how to treat you this time ? Maybe a short story about how too much sleep is worse than sleep deprivation or how I am trying right now to loose my smoking habit . Either one of those subjects are pretty boring , and let's face it no sane human being would give a damn on them .     So ...sticking my nicotine patch on the gluteus maximus I started the old diesel engine which powers my notebook, and began to write all the above .
      Currently I am in the same damned city where I was born, a small part of my childhood was spent on those streets , and even after 24 years the city hasn't changed to much . I am planning to take an small road trip and maybe take a small hike on a forest road , I am pretty much bored right now and my hope to find a job this year are slowly dieing .  Right now , I am feeling like I really don't need many people around , you know I have that feeling that I need to be alone , alone to find some Zen or lost inner peace .
          I will end here my silly good for nothing post , I am going to lift my persona and hover to get a coup of coffee .
        See you later my dear reader , see you later .  

        

Adverse reactions

         Here I am, standing in front of my poor ass notebook thinking what shall I do tomorrow, not realizing that is already tomorrow..fuck the time is 2:46 AM and my mr. Sandman is gone at a strip club , getting himself buzzed of with whiskey snorting some coke or raping a stripper .
         My chosen name is Jack, my real name is not important nor relevant of what mumbo-jumbo I will write here , I don't really care who will read this and I don't really care about any of your opinions . We live in an era of bytes ..having digital friends and a whole new digital life , and sincerely I am pretty much sick of this circus , I remember a time not so long ago when I didn't even had a mobile phone, when life was simple enough to write letters, when if you liked someone you would have the guts to tell that person what you felt for her . I remember the time when I walked in my own universe at my country side bare footed and enjoyed the smell of the grass , the trees and the whole fucking living nature around me . It was a time of miracles and magnets .
          Now here I am ..wondering what's the difference between a grown child and a man , asking myself questions like " what should I do with my life " ...wtf is wrong with this... I don't know what should I do with my life. Every person I meet is always asking me the same thing ..how to make money ..dudes I don't know how to make money if I knew I would not be here , probably I would be along with mr Sandman drinking my brains until neuronal collapse .
                I will end this post here ..bah.. every single pseudo philosopher ask himself what is life ...well folks life is nothing ..is just the road to certain death , there you go , problem solved . I hate big words ..so good night motherfuckers , sleep tight  and dream about boogeyman .